going home

Date: Friday, March 31, 2006
Time: 10:24:00 PM

yes. i'm petty. but too bad, this's me.
damn attitude sia...haha.;p

today's SPA was a disaster. for no reason i jus couldnt get any crystals. i actually managed to get quite a lot of crude product at the beginning but dunno why when it came to the last step, i couldnt get any recrystallised solid. what i got was some powdery solid which were so fine that i couldnt separate them through filtration. they jus went down with the solution into the filter funnel. haha, even mr chua was a lil baffled. sigh.

and kfc xh daniel qamarul kp and benson had the same fate. we didnt manage to get any crystals. so sianz.
so i screwd up my skill c. hopefully will be able to score for skill d.
gosh, this is like 20% of my A levels. really cant believe that i actually messed the whole thing up.
nvm, we will do better next time. like there's chance. sigh.
actually despite the crystals part, the rest of the experiment was actually quite fun.
skipped pc after that and came home. haha tomorrow gonna have dinner outside with parents. yay =D

Date: Thursday, March 30, 2006
Time: 7:04:00 PM

went to donate blood yesterday, and it was quite a meaningful experience.
it was a lil painful when they injected, and the diameter of the needle was something like two times bigger than the normal injection needle.
haha, aik leng was the funniest. a big guy scared of needle. everybody was laughing when we saw him screaming. at the end we got some free packet drinks and lousy biscuits. but i did feel a lil giddy after the donation, and i was super hungry at nite. heard that the watever blood cells will get replenished within 72 hrs..yup.

i jus dun understand why some people are just so irritating.
it's like, whatever lah.
it seems that ur world only revolves around S and M, and nothing else. these are the only two things that u talk about everytime i see you.
we are fine if u totally leave us out u know? the problem is everytime u kinda include us in the conversation, and u talk about something that we dunno at all. and hell, we dun give a damn okay? i know u're proud of it but we dun have a slight interest in what u do okay?
and i know u are good but it doesnt mean that u can belittle others. dun ever try to underestimate the underdogs.
i dun tell u that i'm better in certain subj but it doesnt mean that u can look down on me, and us.
and i wanna say that people who are good in chinese doesnt mean they cant be good in english. change ur pathetic outdated mindset.
and dun ever belittle me before i explode and scream at u!

damn it. jus realised that screwing up with people is jus another part and parcel of life.
school friends are still the best. love u all...

anyway, SPA tomorrow, hopefully i wun mess it up. =P

Date: Monday, March 27, 2006
Time: 7:30:00 PM

everything sucks!!!
i dun understand. i really dun understand. i really studied for it, but why is it that i cant manage to get my ideal score in every test i do? at least a slight improvement or something?
it's really depressing...
i know that my chem is not good, that's y i try to study as hard as i can everytime when there's chem test, but i jus dun understand y i cant have a brekthrough. this kind of borderline score is definitely not what i want. if not y do i have to study so hard for it????!!!!!
can anybody give me an answer for it?
i'm not giving up, but neither do i have the motivation to work hard on it. it's been three tests, and i dun see how i'm gonna do well in it.
really saddening.

Date: Sunday, March 26, 2006
Time: 11:58:00 AM

guess what? i really feel like a pig now. i slept through my whole of saturday, and now i still feel damn tired and sleepy. think this is what people call laziness. i have lots of work to do but after one whole week of tiring lessons and all the chiong-ing of homework, you jus feel like slacking and having a good rest. hey, energy needs to be replenished before we start working again okay? haha. i'm saying this to make myself feel better. ;P

yup jus read the paper yesterday, and to my surprise, commonwealth games had officially ended. this shows how ignorant i have been. remember in the year 1998 when i was still a p5 kid, Malaysia was holding the event and i spent my time in front of the tv everyday to watch the live telecasts of the various events. i loved watching badminton, bowling, diving, gymnastic.....and that's how i fell in love with badminton!!! yes, this reminds me of the rising star then mr.wong choong hann, i loved wacthing him play at that time!!! and there was the diving pro ken nee yeoh! he rocks too! and this year they managed to secure the badminton team gold!! that's really cool!!!
hmm...so as a whole Malaysia did well ,and Singapore did well too!! three cheers for them!!

yup that's all. going vh to visit san and fong. yeah...mayb can mug together or something.

Date: Friday, March 24, 2006
Time: 5:54:00 PM

pc today was demoralising. i failed standing broad jump and shuttle run. now then i know that my physical fitness has deteriorated so much. but i dun get it, i could survive 2.4k, on top of that, i didnt stop throughout eventhough i havent been training. but i cant do easy( i mean relatively) item like jumping. is it because i'm too heavy or what? i could at least pass last yr but this year everthing is so screwed up.
they kept teaching me the techniques to jump well but sad to say that i still cant manage to grasp them.
somebody pls help me in this, i dun wanna fail my napfa in this very last year that i'm taking it!!!
peers so we shall go to the gym again. =)

geez. jus took integration test yesterday. hey! i think i did fine! math is getting more and more interesting and i can see improvement in every test i do. =) heez, i'm so clever. bleah.

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and this is specially to YOU,
i find it extremely irritating everytime i see msges from people who dun wanna disclose their identities. regardless of whether the comments are positive or negative.
i appericiate ur interest in visiting my blog, but i also detest such secrecy and mystery.

alrites. that's all for today.

Date: Friday, March 17, 2006
Time: 2:23:00 PM

so i'm back in singapore. i swear i dint purposely wanna miss physics lessons! i really woke up early in the morning and asked dad to send me to the custom. i knew that there definitely wld be traffic jam but i dint expect it to be that heavy.
anyway, it's too late. i missed it means i missed it.

and now then i believe that accidents do happen at times, even when everything is planned and confirmed. i was so excited about the class outing that we are gonna have tomorrow, not until one hour ago that i was informed that we are to attend a scholarship talk at 8am tomorrow at MOE. omg. i dun understand y it is like that. everytime when i'm about to attend a class event, something will surely happen.
anyway, i will try to join the class people right after the talk tomorrow, hopefully it will not be too late by then.

arghhhhhhh....shucks! i have so much things to do!!!! is there any kind soul out there who can offer ur help?

and the place i stay in now is like one big piece of sh*t. jus walked past the notice board and saw the announcement that whoever wants to go out after 7pm during weekdays or during weekends must seek the permission from the resident advisers. craps. all craps.
cant wait to finish my 'a'levels. one minute spent in this hostel is like one year spent in hell. somebody pls save me!!!! arhhhh.

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jus to add on, jus went to surf the scgs web jus now, and was surprised to see the excellent results achieved. omg! the juniors actually surpassed us, and they achieved the best results in ten years.

the school have 9 pupils who scored 9A1s, 18 with 8A1s, 16 with 7A1s and 30 with 6A1s.

that's amazing isnt it. good job girls!

Date: Thursday, March 16, 2006
Time: 1:32:00 PM

another personality test thingy. dunno whether it's true. jus think that it looks quite nice on my blog. lols.

Your Birthdate: May 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.
Your strength: Your charm
Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics
Your power color: Indigo
Your power symbol: Four leaf clover
Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Date:
Time: 12:44:00 PM

going back to the jail later. there's physics extra lesson tomorrow and i dun wanna skip it. but another part of me feels so much to stay at home for another day.
anyway, guess it's really time to learn to be pragmatic.

have been mugging physics for the past two days. SHM is easy, waves is OK, superposition is hard. havent been touching physics for the past dunno how many months, partly bcuz of the new system of physics department which lets us have the tests at home, but i think the most important contributing factor is my own lack of discipline. lack of SDSM.
when the results of tests are not counted in our progress reports, i jus dun have the motivation to mug for it, despite the fact that i'm actually quite interested in the subject.
so from next term onwards, i may join the people to have the tests in class. i may fail the tests but i think it's still better that way.

came across this proverb and thought it's meaningful. so i think i should share with my pals.

life is a roller coaster.
You can either scream every time you hit a bump or you can throw your hands
up in the air and enjoy it.

visit this link: http://www.oneliners-and-proverbs.com/

basically it's all about the attitude that we adopt.
and it falls closely with the positive attitude that the school emphasizes on. jus think about it and u will realise that it really makes A LOT of sense.

Date: Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Time: 9:08:00 PM

saw the link of this quiz in kfc's blog and was thinking no harm trying it.
haha. think this is ABSOLUTELY not true.

discover what candy you are @ quiz me

Date:
Time: 8:50:00 PM

i really dunno wat's wrong with the weather nowadys.
it's freaking hot. i'm practially sweating for the whole day. dun feel like going anywhere, jus wanna stay at home, under the fan.
life sucks like this.

ok, nothing special to blog about.
byez.

Date: Monday, March 13, 2006
Time: 8:20:00 PM

everything changed.
i seriously think that adults are complex living things. they like to make things complicated while they are actually so simple and can be solved so easily.
i really dun understand them. why want to further create troubles while the situation is already bad enough?
and i'm really disillusioned. it's like everything is no longer the same. the people whom i liked so much in the past turned out to be bad person. i really dunno how to accept it but i'm trying hard to.
i hope that things will change for the better.
and i hope that things that are fine will stay the same forever.
heez.
i'm glad that my parents are not complicated. =)

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jus had gp common test today. and it was a total disaster. think i'm gonna fail it, at most jus manage to pass.
sigh. dun wanna talk about it.
at home now, so should jus enjoy every minute of it.

cheerios.

Date: Friday, March 10, 2006
Time: 3:07:00 PM

dint go to school today. i woke late, and i knew something was wrong with me. i dun normally oversleep unless i'm not feeling well. yup, so was thinking that since it's the last day of school, i should jus stay home and rest. this is not right i know. so dun come and tell me how wrong i have been. cuz i myself know that.

and im going home tomorrow. yay! finally the day has come. yesterday me and pk were jus talking about something really irrelevant. we actually slept through the evening and missed our dinner. and to our disappointment, we realised that there wasnt any food in the room at all. so we didnt eat anything, and were starving till today morning. haha. we were saying that if we are at home, we will never feel hungry cuz there's always food somewhere in the house. haha. that's really true huh.

and lets talk about this particular junior i met in school.
it's like...he looked like he wasnt enjoying himself at all in the orientation camp, and when i went to the hall to join the j1s for mass dance yesterday, i saw him sitting at the back of the hall, looking very sleepy and tired. and isolated.
and not surprising all all, i saw him in the hostel at night, while the rest of the j1s were actually having their jj nite.
if i wasnt feeling tired yesterday evening, i would have stayed and joined them for the night. but look at this young gentleman, he was part of it and he decided to quit. what else can i say?
i know u're form acs(i), and u were in acjc in the 1st three months.
but so what???
if u continue to have this kind of attitude, it's not going to get you anywhere. u think u're one class higher than the rest jus becus u're from a so-called branded school? that's crap.
look at the way u behave, u're no match of the rest.
sigh.
i'm really glad that for our batch, we dun have people with attitude problem, and all of us are enjoying ourselves to the fullest. we are jus so different. and we are so united. we know each other really well and we dun really care about the differences that we have.
we managed to surpass our seniors, but very sad to say, i dun see how this batch of juniors are gonna surpass us.

alrights. jus some thoughts.
tada.

Date: Wednesday, March 8, 2006
Time: 3:03:00 PM

so chem test is over.
hmm. i have no idea at all whether i have done well. it's like...i tried my best to study, and i tried my best to answer every question. though there were parts that i wasnt quite sure about, i guess this time round i should be able to get a better score than last time round.
and guess what? i dint go for chinese lesson today!!! not that i purposely wanted to skip lesson. i know if laoshi knows about it, she will be super duper pissed with me.
but i seriously dint want to fail my test.
i spent my whole night studying for chem and was left with no time to study for chinese.
so the last thing i could do was to skip the lesson and take the test tmr.
at least i will have tonight to mug for it. yes. im a bad student. i think so too. i know it's morally wrong, but practically, it wasnt too bad.
and i setiously think school is driving us crazy.
they actually let the students to have three tests in one day.
it's like hello, we do need to sleep ok?
there seriosly isnt enough time for us to study for so many tests in sucha short time. and u all are expecting us to do well? it's possible, but not for people like me.
no everyone of us has the kind of ability to withstand the sleepiness and continue mugging through the night when it's already past midnight.
i know this's life. but is it wrong to complain a lil bit? life does really suck at times. haha.

alrights. march hol is approaching..
cant wait to go home...
cheerios

Date: Monday, March 6, 2006
Time: 4:27:00 PM

oh gosh. my previous post makes me sound like a rude spoilt brat.
jus to clarify, i'm not. i was jus angry at the unreanonability of some people.
haha. im impulsive and hot-tempered. but other than that, i'm ok. =)

there are three tests coming on this wednesday. chinese, chem and TCA2.
hopefully will be able to do well.
good thing that life seems to be getting better for me. i start to have the kind of motivation to study hard already. yesterday met up with eric, and we were saying that all of us must get 4A'S like what our seniors did.
i know it's hard. but at least i have the goals to work towards. it doesnt matter if i cant achieve at the end as long as i try.
anyway, will jia you der...=)

sigh. jie's laptop is spoilt.
like all the pics, songs and docs are gone. think she has headache now. it's hard to survive the days without computer.

ok need to mug now.
jia you for chem test people!
will try to score for it this time round. =)

Date: Sunday, March 5, 2006
Time: 7:51:00 PM

scr*w u the f*cking b*tch!
oh my goodness. im so so so angry now. for the 4 yrs i'm living in singapore, this is the lousiest hostel i have ever lived in.
jus bcuz we dint go for the stupid f*cking cluster gathering, u scolded us in the public.
and when lingzhi was trying to explain herself why she didnt go for the gathering, she screamed at her in front of everyone and everyone turned and looked at us.

this is what the f*cking b*tch said jus now.
"i dun care whether u are busy or jc2 or not, as long as u are staying in nus high hostel, u HAVE to go for the gathering!"
"if you dun want to attend the gathering, go out and stay, dun stay here!"
as if we care.
she claimed that lingzhi was being very rude, while she was jus trying to explain herself. she said that we are not behaving like senior girls, and we are not behaving like scholars.
what the heck.
she is so UNREASONABLE!!!!
she was saying that no matter how busy we are, we have to put aside all the work and to attend the gathering.
and the one thing i cant stand most is that, she wants all the jc2s, i repeat, JC2S!!! to plan for the next gathering.
alright. i know that we are from jj, and we are not as brilliant as your nus high kids. but it doesnt mean that we dun have to study!!!
we are already stressed enough, and now u are asking us to do all these nonsense.
why cant u jus ask ur nus high kids to do it? why must it be us???
that's UNFAIR!!!!!!!

OMG. i really cant stand her.
im gonna make a complaint.
i seriously mean it.
im not gonna let this disrupt my studies.

and YOU. mind ur words!
my mum doenst even scold me like that.
and who the hell do u think u are?

and to add on, she is this humongous "pillar of support" of this fragile hostel, blocking all the possible light from filtering into our life..
what the heck.
and they expect us to 'lead a vibrant and colourful life" in this hostel. how is that possible? remove this horrendous obstruction first.

i miss chinese high boarding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i seriously do.

btw, thanks so much for spoiling my day man! u b*tch.

Date: Friday, March 3, 2006
Time: 1:03:00 AM

oh gosh.
i did intergration till i disintegrated.
the topic sucks. i think it's really hard.
anyway, shld try my best to like it.

oh well. have nothing to blog.
shld continue to do maths.
jia you chenhui!=)

Date: Wednesday, March 1, 2006
Time: 11:20:00 PM

three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for chenhui!!! =)
heez. i got an A1 for my AO chinese!!!

a level results were released today, and all the seniors were back to get their results. guess what? all j2s were required to go to LT5 to watch the live telecast of the release of results. honestly i dun see the point of it, they claimed that by doing that, we will be scared and therefore be more motivated to study for our exams. but after watching that i only felt depressed. some of the seniors were crying, maybe they dint do as well as what they have expected, or maybe some of them have failed their exams.
i was really scared. i know i wun do that bad to the point that i will flunk my exams, but i oso dun want to get the kind of borderline results. i really really wanna excel!!! but looking at the results that i produced so far, the prognosis is bleak.

when they showed the list of the top scorers, i was like 'whoa!'. how i hope that my name will be on the list next year...but sometimes it's easier to dream than to achieve.

anyway, i will try my best to achieve the best that i can.
jia you chen hui.
jia you pals.
jia you s-thirteenians.
we will make it on the list ok? =)

cheerios.